Sunday - Horrible Day

Paternal grandma suggested walker today... Mummy hates the idea.
Grandma gave the *I KNOW BETTER* look & tone... *Aiyah, we're old generation... u dun listen, forget it!*

Wah lao, give us the pitiful method... Mummy didn't want to argue. So daddy say NO! But grandma insist. Saying she'll get it.

After she left the bedroom, mummy told daddy, if she insist, mummy will take Ryan out of grandma's life.. She can forget about even having a glimpse of Ryan!

Grandma has been trying to be funny recently... Mummy caught grandma telling Ryan this
*come, ma-ma carry u, ma-ma sayang u*
She still call herself *Ah Ma* in front of daddy & mummy... So i think she's trying to brain-wash my son.
She only calls herself *Ma-Ma* in private sessions with MY son...

Hey, I am the mother... NOT HER! A baby cannot differenciate between hokkien dialect *ma-ma* & english pronounciation *mama*

Is she trying to treat my son as her son??? She already has 2 sons. Isn't it enough?

Visit to the PD

Daddy & Mummy brought Ryan to a new PD because he's still phelgmy n fluish... PD say he's not that sick afterall. Mummy was juz being overreactive..
Lungs r clear... Suction was done to clear his nose mucous. Phelgm was clear n sticky in vomit. PD said that Ryan is vomiting as a reflex upon coughing.

Today, he's all better... he hates the medicine. I have to force it down his throat before milk as I have 2 experiences that he vomit all his milk on me... I had to change bedsheets so many times in a week. Haiz...

I'm juz glad to know that he's juz being fluish.. Not anything serious. Dry cough occasionally...

Now, I have a new worry. He's been screaming in his sleep recently.. Teary cries suddenly while asleep. It can only be smoothered by latching and nothing else!

He's currently drinking every hour!!! More of comfort feeding... Not hungry... I really dunno what to do with him... I can't bear to bottle-train him when he cry till he vomit...

MRT Trip

Yesterday, we took MRT from Jurong East to AMK to visit a chiropractic for mummy's breaking back... Very skillful indeed. The pain was gone.. But a blue-black ache was there to replace it... Haha  I have to bear the aches of the aftereffects until... dunno when...

Ryan has been rather cooperative.. He slept in the pram quietly from JE station till Bukit Batok station.. haha... After he woke up, we entertain him while he's still in the pram until about woodlands station before he decide to cry for milk.
After feeding, daddy carried Ryan to sleep until we reached AMK, daddy put Ryan down. He remained awake and quiet...

Bad thing was, we did not realised that we had to climb so many steps!! WITH the pram in tow!!!
Ryan remained in the pram while daddy and mummy carried the pram up and down the overhead bridge...

Ryan's Sleeping Position

I'm stuck on bed because of Ryan's sleeping habits. I need to wean him off my body soon... Otherwise I can't do anything at all...


I hope he gets well soon. Now, I can't bear to train him on anything seeing how much discomfort he is in...

Tired Mummy

Ryan has been rather sticky recently... Perhaps he's still sick.   I get scared when he suddenly pout and scream in his sleep... He's been waking up around 4am these past few nights.
I dunno why he's still sick. Probably because I didn't take good care of him.  I really want to bring him for nose suction. But i cannot tahan his crying during the suction.  What should I do?
Option A - Leave him alone
Option B - Stuff my ears with cotton wool and let him go through the suction

I think I'm not a good mummy. Maybe because I am still not ready to be a mother.

Note to Ryan:
Darling, mummy loves you very much. Please forgive me if i ever hurt you in any way or another. Those times when i shout at you because I was fustrated. Those times when i smack your bottom because you make me angry. Those times when I held you up and shook you because you refuse to stop crying.
I really regret hurting you physically. Please recover asap...
I love you & may God bless you...

Father's Day Celebration

Today, my parents, brother, hubby, Ryan & I went to Riverview Hotel to celebrate Father's Day...
We were struggling to get out of the house because Ryan was super cranky after bath as he wants to feed.
I fed him.... For a super long time. *It's uncommon*
My mom came to our house to pick us up. She carried Ryan, sleeping well.
Initially everything was well, Ryan demanding a drink AGAIN just before dinner started... Until during photo-taking, Ryan suddenly vomited buckets of milk! Through the nose!

Aiyoh... my parents n raymond n I was so scared. Dunno what happened to him. It happened so sudden.  The feed was about 1hr ago. I wasn't sure why he vomited. Anyway, luckily I did not remove my nursing shawl.. So all the milk was on it and not my clothes.

What a day!

Should I restrict his milking hours?  Did he overdrink? Aiyoh, I'm such a bad mommy!!

Poor Ryan, Poor Mummy

Since last night, Ryan has been super cranky... I hate bringing him for jabs!
He cried for milk more often than usual... Then end up overdrinking, he'll puke everything out.

Now i very scared to feed him. I need to pause every 5mins to see if he's full and if he's drinking for comfort.
I reintroduced pacifier to him in late morning as he needs to suck but for fear of overdrinking if i latch all day.
He sucks the pacifier well. I think he's teething now...

Symptoms i observe:
Excessive drooling
Rubbing cheeks
Constant mouth moving
Increased need to latch *not hungry*
Crying excessively

I did consider if he might be colic again. So i administered ridwind to him around 5pm. Then i latched him. 5mins later, he stopped. So i burped him. Whoa! Super loud sound.. Like an adult. Hehe
Then i relatch him for about 5mins more. Afterwhich he gave me the *i'm gonna puke* sound...
I immediately withdraw his milk and carried him upright towards a pail while patting his back.
Yes - I put a pail in my room to prevent daily bedsheets changing or daily room mopping...

It's very tiring taking care of a baby all alone at home. I think he's taking too much of my time so much that I have forgotten how to be a wife.

Do all mothers have this problem? Are we superwomen? Can we juggle our roles as Wife, Mother, Daughter equally?
I really doubt my capability...

Dr Yvonne See was on holiday this week. Ryan was due for his jab this week. I insisted on bringing him to Dr Steven Ng.
This sparked off an arguement with my hubby over the increased cost of $100 *consultation fees*.

One of the reasons why i insisted on doing the jabs this week was because Ryan has been rather cranky for the past few weeks. He's been vomitting for a couple of times already. I've long wanted to bring him to a PD. Previously I brought him to Dr Yvonne See for his rashes, Dr Yvonne did not administer anything at all.
End up we had to buy Sebamed face cream to apply for Ryan... As his face did not recover, I bought the Himalaya's face cream to replace the sebamed. It worked rather well.

After that incident, i seriously doubt Dr Yvonne's perception. What if Ryan is really sick? Is she gonna not administer medication as well? Hoping he'll recover on his own?

Anyway, due to financial pressure, i'll carry on bringing Ryan to Dr Yvonne for future innoculations and illness. I'll probably do my own research and insist on medication as i deem fit.

Ryan's Second 5-in-1 Jab - 11th June 2008

I brought Ryan to Dr Steven Ng @ Gleneagles Hospital for his 5-in-1 & Rotarix Vaccine. I had to carry him during most of the assessment as Ryan was being cranky today.. *Disciplinary Daddy isn't here today.


Today was his 3mth-4mth assessmental screening. Everything seems normal.  Ryan vomited a total of 4 times for the past month. He also cough and gagged pretty often lately...
Last week I brought him to neighbourhood PD. But no medication was administered.  I told Dr Ng about his symptoms. He gave Ryan anti-vomit & phelgm medication.  Dr Ng mentioned that cause of vomit is probably Ryan trying to cough out the phelgm. Therefore he wanted me to observe further to see if any bile is being vomited out in future.

3rd month updates:
Length - 62cm *no growth from previous month*
Weight - 7.15kg
Head Circumference - 40.5cm

He's on the 90th percentile for his age... Good... It goes to show that babies can thrive on breastmilk as well as formula milk...
It rules out the myth that breastmilk fed babies are scrawny.

Baby Development and Developmental Milestones ( Month 1 to 3 ) – The New Parents Guide

http://www.thenewparentsguide.com/baby-development-month-1to3.htm
Juz some info for fellow mummy friends... cheers :)

Having Fun @ Home

Gotten the link for fake magazine cover from a fellow mother friend...
So i'm having some fun with Ryan's pictures...

Ryan's First Flip - 11th June 2008

Ryan flipped three times before the slow mummy managed to catch it on video.

This morning, Daddy was entertaining Ryan while Mummy made breakfast for Daddy. When Mummy was done, Daddy told Mummy that Ryan flipped! Mummy thought Daddy was bluffing.

Anyway, Daddy was late for work. So I left Ryan on tummy on the bed before proceeding to see Daddy out of the house...

When I went back to the bedroom, I realised that Ryan was on his back! Then did i believed my husband when he told me Ryan flipped all by himself...

So, as usual. crazy mummy had to record it so she can view it a million times...

Mini Push-ups - 9th June 2008 Part II

Another video...

Mini Push-ups - 9th June 2008

Video is taken to mark Ryan's first milestone in his life... Ryan is officially no longer a newborn. He's now called an infant!

Ryan is 3 months old! - 9th June 2008

Finally Ryan has hit the 3mths milestone... Officially changed his name calling from a NEWBORN to an INFANT...

Mummy decided to take better pictures of Ryan doing mini-push-ups... To mark the milestone in his life. :)

Busy Day for Daddy - 1st June 2008

While mummy was taking 40 winks, daddy decided to entertain Ryan for awhile...

Trying Mini Push-Ups On 29th May 2008

Actually, Ryan has been doing a fair bit of mini push-ups already... But because the silly mummy always forgot to charge the videocam & camera, it was often missed out.

Will upload better pics soon...

Something Amusing

Nine words women use...

1.) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are Right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes means Five minutes only if you have just been given Five MORE Minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in Fine.

4.) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. DO NOT DO IT.

5.) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you
about Nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of Nothing.)

6.) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome.

8.) Whatever: Is a women's way of saying F#@K YOU!

9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but she is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?'
For the woman's response refer to #3.