Time To Induce

On 08/03/08, during gynae appt, i was checked for dilation... 1cm only. But because i'm losing weight, gynae worries for me n baby.

Therefore decision to insert dilation pill was made. Chris was sure i will dilate after 2pills.

7pm - Admitted to gleneagles hospital maternity ward bed 523
8pm - Inserted first pill, put on CTG to monitor bb's heartbeat and my contractions consistency.
9pm - Nurse came to off CTG machine. Noticed significant contractions though irregular. Me? No feeling at all...
11pm - Chris came to see me. Told me, no pain = no baby yet... So he ordered another insertion at 3.30am to bring on more contractions.
3.30am - Was awaken to insert 2nd dilation pill. Put on CTG for 2hrs this time cause baby was sleeping most of the time. So baby sleeping = not enough movements.
6am - Was put on CTG again as Chris is coming to see me soon. Lots regular contractions. Happening every 10mins... I thought, finally...
7am - Chris came, happy to see regular and strong contractions. Checked for dilation. Result? Still 1cm... SUPER DISAPPOINTED MAMA... Chris said, to insert the 3rd pill. If after that still no dilation then have to c-sec. I'm starting to blame myself... Baby has been coorporating with me... Why isn't my cervix dilating? Why is my cervix so darn stubborn?
I was persuaded to go for epidural... Nah... I want to feel everything my baby is giving me... Afterall, I waited a good long 10mths for this right?

Now, 12noon... While waiting for dilation to happen, i decided to write all my feelings down... Been squatting lots, hoping for a miracle to happen to me. I really want to try natural birth. Why am I deprived of the chance? I can endure all sorts of pain in order to be able to get the feel of motherhood...

Baby's enjoying himself in me. That's a relief for me. I was afraid that all the pills insertion may put extra stress on him. Seem's that he's capable of protecting himself.

Enough for now... I'll continue part 2 after my second cervix check... Please pray that a miracle will happen...