2008 Birth Story

On 08/03/08, during gynae appt, i was checked for dilation... 1cm only. But because i'm losing weight, gynae worries for me n baby.

Therefore decision to insert dilation pill was made. Chris was sure i will dilate after 2 pills.

7pm - Admitted to gleneagles hospital maternity ward bed 523

8pm - Inserted first pill, put on CTG to monitor bb's heartbeat and my contractions consistency.

9pm - Nurse came to off CTG machine. Noticed significant contractions though irregular. Me? No feeling at all...

11pm - Chris came to see me. Told me, no pain = no baby yet... So he ordered another insertion at 3.30am to bring on more contractions.

3.30am - Was awaken to insert 2nd dilation pill. Put on CTG for 2hrs this time cause baby was sleeping most of the time. So baby sleeping = not enough movements.

6am - Was put on CTG again as Chris is coming to see me soon. Lots regular contractions. Happening every 10mins... I thought, finally...

7am - Chris came, happy to see regular and strong contractions. Checked for dilation. Result? Still 1cm... SUPER DISAPPOINTED MAMA... Chris said, to insert the 3rd pill. If after that still no dilation then have to c-sec. I'm starting to blame myself... Baby has been cooperating with me... Why isn't my cervix dilating? Why is my cervix so darn stubborn?

I was persuaded to go for epidural... Nah... I want to feel everything my baby is giving me... Afterall, I waited a good long 10mths for this right?

Now, 12noon... While waiting for dilation to happen, i decided to write all my feelings down... Been squatting lots, hoping for a miracle to happen to me. I really want to try natural birth. Why am I deprived of the chance? I can endure all sorts of pain in order to be able to get the feel of motherhood...

Baby's enjoying himself in me. That's a relief for me. I was afraid that all the pills insertion may put extra stress on him. Seems that he's capable of protecting himself.

Enough for now... I'll continue part 2 after my second cervix check... Please pray that a miracle will happen...

After 3pill insertion, Chris came to check on me ard 11pm. Still 1cm dilated... He say he'll give me till 7am in the morning to decide if i wanna c-sec. So i had to eat my breakfast @ 5am to allow 6hours empty stomach for operation.

After hearing this, i cried whole night... Never expected myself to be c-sec...

5.30am on 10th March - Ate breakfast. On CTG.

7am on 10th March - Chris came n check my cervix again. 1cm dilated.. He told me to prepare for c-sec @ noon time. I cried again.. Hb see me so sad, he tried consoling me... But it was fruitless as i was already breaking down... While showering to prepare for c-sec, i also cried... I realised tat the waiting time for c-sec to arrive is a killer...

After being in labour pain constantly for 36hrs since Sat 8pm - Mon 7am, i still have to wait for 4hrs before i can see my son...

12noon - Sent to OT. Was put on BP machine. Anaethestist came... Wanted to fix my drip on left hand.. Poked me, digged, cannot find blood flowing out.. Removed needle n poked my right hand instead...

Since I had stemcord, i needed blood for testing. Therefore blood was squeezed out of my right hand for blood testing. After few squeezes, he told me, not enough blood...

So my left elbow was poked to draw blood directly into syringe.

12.15 - Epidural was administered. Stupid nurse kept asking not to move. I was so fed-up, i scream at her to shut up... Anesthetist got a shock. Told i scolding him... Haha

Immediately epidural effect came in.

12.20 - Chris came... Hb was then allowed into OT. Began slurring due to epidural overdose...

Was given oxygen as I couldn't breath at all! Overdosed!!

12.30 - C-sec started... Totally no pain cause overdosed already. Not even pressure... Ryan was too big, therefore Chris asked anesthetist to help push from my tummy top.

Hb was shivering all the way... Too bloody for him... I'm so proud of him for being there for me.

12.41 - Pop comes Ryan... While nurse was tube sucking his mouth, Ryan seems unhappy. And decided to grab the tube... So amusing... Remembered vaguely the moment Ryan popped, Chris asked HB to start shooting... HB so stunned, his hands were shaking all e way manz... :)

l was so groggy all e time... Like under GA... Therefore couldn't carry Ryan in OT, though he was offered to me. So i only touched him... HB dare not carry also...

Cleaning started... I was gone by that time. HB was asked to leave.. I finally gave in to the epi effect n fell aslp. Woke up in maternity Ward.